there's actually Wil too but it doesn't know they're still around or who they really are tbh, which is partially why I think it'd be interesting if they ever met

which. I mean it might in the P3 route but canonly I have no plans yet

I guess another is how to carry on someone's memory
unravelers risk their lives to help humans but they leave nothing when they die, you can't immortalize them in pictures and videos either
Spirit's always caught between wanting to forget and guilt that it's the only one who can carry on his memory

I guess another theme that I'm not sure how to articulate is related to memories
like "is it better to have love and lost than to have never loved at all" and how would someone who lives forever feel about that

before i deleted my paragraphs tho i lowkey looked at it and i was like damn . ... he kinda did use Spirit like actually

there are things about Arusu that's impossible for practically anyone in the AU to know, but maybe I shouldn't underestimate anons

Digital doodle of an exasperated Fukase and a question mark flag Ramble: I wanted to explore themes of passive suicidality where you're not actively trying to die but you're not really trying to live either. You just let yourself rot and isolate yourself thinking you won't care if you just disappear, but when you realize you're actually *for real* past the point of no return, you get a moment of clarity, regretting letting things get this far, but it's already too late. Spirit is kind of in a similar state right now, but its fear of corruption is the main thing that keeps it going anyway, so it tries to keep its head empty and not think of anything bad because bad memories and feelings are useless clearly :)

CW; suicide (ramble in alt text)
I was going to ramble more but maybe I should leave some stuff for anons to pick at

the Arusu story has been marinating in my head since high school so I don't remember if this was intentional, but I feel like it could be smt ND people can relate to bc I accidentally made my AU the "everyone is ND" AU by basing everyone's quirks off of myself (ND status pending)

the less triggering theme is trying to live your idea of a "normal" life to find some kind of happiness while badly depressed and traumatized, but you're inherently different in some way, and by trying to hide that difference, it leads to no one truly understanding you and loneliness

i wanna ramble about the themes of the whole arusu situation bc i feel like the themes are rly clear but I'm trying to figure out how to bc i don't wanna accidentally trigger anyone

i do think i might have to lay down in a dark room very soon tho i feel too awake so it might be neurology

liking kimchi would be so fun i wanna like kimchi

most of my anxiety isnt here anymore, i got really good progress on comms I think life is nice

it's hard bc like
1. unravelers are hard to kill so if they actually do die, it's probably inherently a brutal death :(
2. their deaths had to traumatize Arusu so badly that he never wanted anything to do with spirits again even if he corrupted
but i just dunno how i feel about actually writing it

I don't know if I'll include that in the Arusu story or not bc it made me uncomfortable but also im like yeah death scenes aren't exactly very comforting

when i was looking thru my old sketches yesterday I also found their death scene written on paper and i was like ... oh okay !

2/3 of them are dead btw sorry kyo and yuu . i still miss Kyo . i had to decide whether to let Kyo or Wil live and I went Wil but I'll miss the sopping puppy left in the rain

thats not even how they look in my AU

i di ddnt mean to post this image . i thought about it and was about to delete it . maybe this was a sign

oh i forgot that my Yuu actually cusses, not as much but he also feels very normal bc of it
i tried rly hard to make Yuu nice but after translating my oomfie's talkloids (who has a mean Yuu) I can't help making him a little bit of a hardass too

showed my mom smt just to check if it looks ok and she was like the hair u draw always looks...unique ..... what does this mean

I havent read or seen witch hat atelier but agott’s design has always caught my eye <— most predictable bastard ever
Qifrey too but i dont know if that was as predictable of me

been going between very anxious to getting sleepy and wanting to curl into a ball

maybe ill remake my daily game dev thread

oh yeah u might be able to tell since i deleted the post but i put in the order :] hoping everything goes smoothly I'm nervous

i was gonna wait until the end of the day to place the order but ive already gotten into contact w everyone who expressed interest and i dont think anyone new is gonna show up so I might just do it now . or in like 10 mins

not . quite . with how many people ordered I already got a bulk discount, I was just thinking about ordering an extra something else entirely

no... I shan't say...

yeah I don't think I can afford this bad decision im gonna be responsible and stick to my original plan

Granted it can turn the environment itself red but yeah … rip my opening lines