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Ahh but then I added a few grindings of a Secret Flavor Weapon (TM) 🤭 now the TAAAAASTE reaches up to bitch slap me which is what I was looking for so now all is well in the soup world tonight. 🤌
#MajeresMiles #soup #salt #soul #lifesucks #flavor #TAAAAASTE
I’m pretty dismayed at just HOW much salt it required to flavor ~45oz of soup, didn’t keep track but it seems uhhhh bit much. 😬
#MajeresMiles #soup #salt #soul #lifesucks #flavor
Chicken Soup for Those Without a Soul Or Hope Or Whatever 🤷🏻♂️
I might be damned yet I can cook. 🤌
#MajeresMiles #cook #dinner #ChickenSoup #imdying #helpme
I wrestled fiercely w Kirk’s point here, what was he really saying?? Heady stuff for a 7 year old! But I spent weeks thinking about this. Relieve our pain or grow into it? Better with or without pain? As a middle aged man now I know there are no answers.
#MajeresMiles #pain
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It evokes many other things, I am probably still yet that same lost mystic, a Zarathustra in the village shining a lamp about wildly crying out, where is god? Where is god?
#MajeresMiles #pain
“I couldn’t help but notice your pain… It runs deep, share it with me!” Give to me your pain and together we will release it. This is the psychology of the future, to bring about a world of love & light. If I had any courage I would BE Sybok.
I believe in only this.
#MajeresMiles #Humanism #pain
As a little boy I was shocked to discover that my favorite Star Trek character was not Kirk, Spock, or McCoy, but Spock’s half brother Sybok… But he’s no hero, ostensibly a villain yet some kind of savior, meaning what? Child me had no vocab for it.
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"I am nothing to anyone, and that is my greatest freedom." — Franz Kafka.
I must find my way to this view. I have practiced detachment yet I still care about people. I will let them go. All of them.
#MajeresMiles #quote #attachment
I didn’t even care that I had leftovers, I just had to try it again with slight variation, plenty of mixed greens this time but no shrooms. Onions are a must but last time I was out. Not overcooking the sauce is KEY. 🤌 I live in umami heaven now.
#MajeresMiles #cooking #dinner #stirfry #yum #umami
On the bright side, back in normalcy. My stir fry continues to improve & the sauce is perfect. Chicken, mushroom, peas, & tomato, random leftover veggie special. 🤗 Fish & Oyster sauce are so effective for flavor. MSG too!
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Long ago I had a terrifying premonition that if anything happened to me no one would show up & I would die alone. Now I know that it is true. I’m gripped by terror but I will rethink everything. All of it. Still die alone. It cannot be avoided-I am foster.
#MajeresMiles #death #die #forgotten #alone
A whole bulb of garlic, diced onion, half pound of ground beef, 13 tomatoes, and a few sprigs of Basil. Never made better tomato sauce. 🤌
#MajeresMiles #cook #cooking #recipes #homemade
One of the hardest phone calls of my life. I don’t want to do this. But I’ve got to do this. Liquid courage, well, fuck me. Come on Pete there’s nothing to be afraid of. Everyone is just going to die one day anyway so. Why am I gripped by terror. I’m going to scream.
#MajeresMiles #phone #mortality
When you’re in so much pain that you cannot get out of bed that is what truly forges the new you.
#MajeresMiles #becoming #nietzsche
Getting coffee, waiting on my order. I sit down to wait, looking at my phone. I look up, guy at the next table is eating giant breakfast. I look at him, it’s the homeless man I had to call the police on this week. He looks up-we see each other. I get my coffee & I say something to him.
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“What was it like to see? The face of your own stability? Suddenly look away? Leaving you with the dead and hopeless?”
—TOOL “jimmy”
11 & she was gone 11 is when we said good goodbye 11 is standing still.
Waiting to free me by going home.
#MajeresMiles #lyrics #gone #scream #screaming #hopeless
Main Street, Vancouver, WA this afternoon. I have really grown to love Vancouver. It’s huge, has so many differing partitions, all so interesting. And I do love Autumn!
#MajeresMiles #Vancouver #Autumn
I wrote an essay about this 25 years ago, the average equipment at the average job costs far more than the average worker. You are a toaster. But a cheap disposable one that whines about its options. Soon you’ll be gone. End game society. Bring. The. War. Now. Do. It
#MajeresMiles #HumanObsolesence
When I feel down I remind myself, I’m better off without them. And it’s absolutely true, it is. Their problems are 1000x my own & I could no longer cope. Now I’m free. Can’t blame me forever for who you are. My consolation, I still get to be me.
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Raistlin Majere surfing out of abyss with hydra heads
Omfg. Create Raistlin Majere surfing out of abyss with hydra heads. I do NOT much like AI but what if one day it could deliver on its promise? Brilliant digital assistant for all humanity? Just wait till LLMs gain full agency! I wish we could avoid destroying all human creativity?
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I often feel like I’m living in a Philip K Dick novel. Detached from popular reality yet aware of it. What I wouldn’t give to have met him. Mine are wholly creations of my own, none of which I believe in. All I asked, what is true & real? Honor, courage, faith, humanity-all constructs.
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Life is not worth living. I was not meant to be born. Dealing with the universal hatred throughout my life has robbed me of all value. Pain is absolute, life is not worth living. Whole genres of thought meant to brush me away from the norms. Why do I persist. I will alone from now on.
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When I was a child I watched Edward Scissorhands & I KNEW it was about me. I didn’t know how but I knew. I also watched The Boy Who Could Fly & The Peanutbutter Solution & I knew that my adoptive family watched them to cope w me. I knew. Now I know why. Life is not worth living.
#MajeresMiles #pain
In a real way witnessing this ruined my life. Get help, got help, there was no help, unhelpful. Men in pain are sent away to suffer alone. We have reversed responsibility but putting massive conditions on trauma, “Why didn’t you…” Bc I was fight flight frozen angry—another “bad” man.
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All of a sudden I realize, this is the rollover I witnessed, I watched that guy die because we couldn’t save him. If i tried to move him out of the window his head would have fallen off. I wish i had not stopped
#MajeresMiles #life #death #news #trauma #regret
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She has 3x terminal illnesses & everything bad about me she is also diagnosed with. When someone shares all of your traits yet cannot understand you where do you do from there? I was THE fucking guy who was going to stay to the end-yet I’m thrown away so easily. I’m glad I’M a fighter.
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For my part I got too angry. I was just too triggered by their behavior-that’s how we grew apart. I was faithful, loyal, doting, affectionate, communicative. They were fun & interesting but we clashed. I bottled up but it was still too much chaos. I got too angry. Became feedback loop.
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One point last year I was working 12 hour shifts w no days off, getting up at 3:30am to prep for hour commute. 22 days straight at one point, I bought a Disney World vacation for us in cash, it sucked, she ditched my mom right when she met her. Year 3, finally met my mom, ditched.
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I was all in on these people, her & two fully dependent disabled step-kids. Living there sucked but I never saw it that way, difficulty is part of life, people bump elbows sharing space. But, they’re also rich. Me-first for all. No visitors ever, others are scarcely real to them.
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